I am the new student director at Warehouse242, and in the process of getting to know my new squad, we took some time to write down our wrestles with God: the questions we have in the back of our mind that we are afraid to ask. 

Over the next few weeks, I'll be sharing my searching as I seek to wrestle through the questions of my students. They aren't answers, but I hope they help in your own searching. 

QUESTION: You were the beginning of everything. How did You come to be? How were you "there" at the beginning?

The intro to God's story starts  out with "In the beginning, God created the Heavens and the Earth". This kind of sounds like the Big Bang Theory. There was nothing (or, if we're getting technical, a small, dense, hot soup). Then there was something.  The difference here is that Christians believe there was God instead of nothing. Then there was creation. We see God as uncreated (no start), sovereign (He's in charge of everything), eternal (He never ends), and spirit (a member of a different realty than we currently live in). 

Our world is confined. We have a start and an end. We have an up and a down. We age. In attempts to make God fit into our reality, the idea of Him not having a starting point is frustrating! Square peg, round hole. He doesn't fit into our parameters of what works and what doesn't. 

Through the story of Christ, we have a taste of what it's like in God's world. We see the impossible happen. People who are dead start to live again. Bodies that are broken get instantaneously healed. Jesus flies up in the air, seems to teleport at other times, can walk through walls and eat food all in the same body. We also see this when God's kingdom breaks into the Old Testament. People's faces glow so bright that you can't look at them. Donkeys talk. The in breaking of the Kingdom of Heaven means that our 3 dimensional world becomes 4 dimensional. The impossible becomes possible. We have promised words that when God's Kingdom of Heaven is fully realized here on earth we will see things like colors we've never seen before, lions laying down with lambs, and the end to daylight because the Lord, God will be so bright we won't need the sun anymore.

So, God is uncreated. In our world this is impossible. Cause and effect. Who made God? In our world, every plant has a seed it came from, and every child grew in the womb of a mother. But God is outside of our world. His reality is not our reality. He knows no time, no beginning, and no end. And because He exist outside of our reality, He is absolutely sovereign. 

I think it bothers us that God is uncreated because it doesn't fit into our reality. But God not fitting into our reality is a good thing. It means His nature is all together different from our nature, and if we believe and pray "on earth, as it is in heaven" (or in our reality as it is in His reality), we might get to see MORE of His mind breaking, incredible, amazing reality in our world today. 

“What no eye has seen, nor ear heard,
    nor the heart of man imagined,
what God has prepared for those who love him” 1 Cor 2:8